Not everyone who has made a name for himself is a hero
Not everyone who has a name and glamor with many fans is a hero
A person who is strong is not necessarily a hero
A person who is brave is also not necessarily a hero
If everyone who is brave is considered as a hero
The bravest who kill himself
Is he considered as the best hero?
He is the most condemned!
He is the most unfortunate and disgraced!
Who is actually the real hero?
Is he someone who is able to swim across the ocean?
Someone who conquers the space?
The true hero as what our Prophet has mentioned
Someone who is willing to fight his own nafs





Allah says ” And O Believers turn towards God in repentance, so that you may attain bliss”.
( Surah Al Nur 24:31)

Rasulullah PBUH said, ” The one who repents from sin is like one without sin, and if God loves a servant, sin does not adhere to him”.
Then he recited, ” Verily God loves those who turn unto Him ( in repentance ) and He loves those who purify themselves”. ( Surah Al Baqarah 2:222)

It was asked, ” O Messenger of Allah, what is the sign of repentance?”
He replied, ” Remorse”.
The Messenger PBUH is reported to have said, ” There is nothing more loved by Allah than the youth who repents.”

Repentance is to return from what is blameworthy in the law of Islam to what is praiseworthy in it.

The Prophet SAW said, ” Remorse is an act of repentance.”

There are three conditions of repentance which must be present in order that it be sound:
1. Remorse for the violations that have been committed
2. Immediate abandonment of the lapse
3. Firm resolve not to return to similar acts of disobedience.”

When a man abandons major sins,
Loosens from his heart the bond of persistence,
And firmly intends not to return to sin,
at that moment true remorse comes to his heart.
He regrets what he has done
and reproaches himself for the repugnant acts he has committed.
Then his repentance is complete
His striving is true and his exchanges the comradeship of the evil companions he previously kept for isolation and for detestation to them.
He works day and night in sorrow
and he embraces sincerity of regret in all his states
Erasing by the flood of his tears the traces of his stumbling
and treats the wounds of his sins with the goodness of his repentance

….. DU’A………..

O Allah, please take me while I am in repentance
or take me while I’m doing honorable deeds
or take me while I’m in fear of You
or take me while I’m longing for You
Please take me while You are pleased with me
Do not take me while I’m in Your wrath
O Lord, I’m Your servant
who is in need of guidance
Please guide me to the right path
O Lord, while the other people are seeking for the world
Let the world seeks for me instead
I will subject it to preconditions
If it is willing, I will accept
If it refuses, I will simply dismiss it



When the Prophet sat down with the Companions, immediately the Apostle prayed,
“Make me poor, let me die in poverty and let the people who are together with me in Paradise later on, be among those who are poor.”
That was the heart of the Prophet,
poverty is a bliss and joy for him.
Something which he very much desired.
Much less with our lives today,
poverty and hardship is something very scary and horrible.
All sorts of things cross in our thoughts about our life tomorrow
and forty years to come until we also think about the lives of our future descendants.
The enormity of the enemies’ influence which has been nesting in our thinking.
It has been damaged, totally damaged, humiliated with the worst humiliation.
Our reliance is no longer with Allah SWT,
instead with physical things which are extremely weak and powerless.
Whether we realize it or not, we have denied that God is Most Wealthy,
Most Gracious, Most Merciful and Almighty.
In our prayer we declare that, “Only to You that I seek for help.”
But in the reality of our lives, we actually had lied.
We have been corrupted and influenced by the world, the evil nafs and the enemies.
We continued to be tied down to the shallow and narrow thinking minds.
The fact is the highest level we can organize our lives is only for about 70 years. While spiritual people or people with taqwa, their preparations are very far ahead and a lot better.
They prepare for a life which is eternal in the hereafter.
MasyaAllah, apparently we had been cheated for a long time.
We utilize all of our time, energy, even our lifetime
to pursue riches and pleasures of life in this temporal world
because we do not like poverty and hardship.
Thus, we are not willing to fight and sacrifice for life in hereafter which is eternal.
Are we able to free ourselves from all those?
Like the lives of Rasululullah SAW, the companions and the righteous who are very delighted with the poverty and hardships.
They are not at all afraid to lose their wealth but are very fearful of losing God.

Losing God means losing everything, even when we are rich and powerful.


O Allah, You are peace.
Hence peace comes only from You and by You
O Allah, You are also Most Exalted and Most High while we, Your servants are most flawed and most low-down.
With that, we promise that we will really listen and are willing to be obedient with utmost obedience to You and Your people.
So we beg You, O Allah, may You be willing to make us repent and to please forgive all our sins,
as You will return us to You, isn’t that so, O Allah.
O Lord, please send Your help continuously for Rasulullah SAW and his people
especially to all the fighters who are also helping to fight for Allah and Rasulullah’s supremacy.
And with Your Power, please devastate all the non-believers who have inflicted pain and destruction
on the religion of Allah and Rasul in the name of Islamic religion.
Please destroy Your enemies O Allah.
Why are You willing to be humiliated for so long by Your servants, O Lord?
And please help us against all the evilness that they had put us through, O Allah.
You have the Supreme Power of ‘Arash, don’t You?
We beg You to please shatter the enemies, please disperse their gatherings, please minimize their numbers
and please shake and topple their positions and power,
and why don’t You inflict upon them severe punishment
to stop their excessive attitudes and their cruelty upon You, Your religion and upon Your people?
Please do it, O Lord, with Your Most Protective as Your character.
Please save us, please save them as well.
We beg again and as the final, O Lord.
Please help us, O God.
Please help us, O God.
Please help us, O God, from all the cruelties of the disbelievers.
And for that please forgive our sins and let us die as martyrs or die as one of Your people.
O Allah, please grant us in the name of Rasulullah SAW, his entire family and his companions.
O Allah please save our Mursyid, our Syeikh, their whole family and their congregation,
including the entire ahlul bait.
O Allah, please grant peace and blessings to our Prophet, Nur Muhammad, the Prophet of the souls, the Prophet for the end of time and also for his whole family and companions.

You are Most Exalted, O Allah, from all their evil thoughts about You,
All of the Messengers are blessed.
All praise are for You, O Allah, the Owner of the entire Universe.



HAVING FREEDOM – What does it mean?

Having freedom does not mean that one is allowed to do just anything
Without considering whether it is halal or haram
Having freedom does not mean one can develop and build just anything
Without considering the rules of God
Having freedom does not mean one is allowed to do anything to satisfy one’s desire
Without considering God’s syariah
Having freedom does not mean one has unlimited freedom
Our nation’s freedom or independence  is being free from the colonials
But we are not entirely free in matters related with our God
Without the colonials we are free to choose our own identities
We are free to refer to God
We are free to choose and follow the life of the Prophet’s Sunnah
If we are free to do just anything
Then we as human beings would have lost our human identity
The nafs or evil desires will have a wild time
Satan will be their friend
What will happen to this world
if mankind behave like satan and animals?

August 1999


Life is beautiful

When the leaders are fair and proper and loving their own people

Parents educate their children with full of love and care

Members of the community help one another and they work together

Allah is adored, worshiped and obeyed

The Sunnah or traditions of the Prophet are followed like flowers blooming in the morning

To love and care for fellow beings becomes a culture

To forgive and asking for forgiveness becomes a tradition

The scholars are like the stars shining at night

Becoming a guide for the travelers on a journey

They are guided safely towards their destination

So that they can avoid any disruption and being lost

There are no castes in the society

Everyone has a place matching their abilities

Nothing is neglected and marginalized

Human rights are guaranteed and protected

Traveling anywhere safely without any worry

There is no interruption in the journey

Wherever you make a stop, you are greeted with Ahlan Wasahlan

You become a guest who are honored and well managed



The Muslim world of today,
have been influenced by the teachings
which says that there is no relationship
between the unseen world with the world they are currently in.

It means that when a person dies,
the relationship is then cut off.
That is the teaching which controls
the Muslim world.

But Abuya came up,
He said, O my people
Do recite every day, five times a day.
Do recite certain verses of the Quran until complete.

Let us get together and take a trip to the invisible world
We should not pay any attention
to the people who said our relationship
with them over there has broken up.

Let us go there.
Our Prophet is there.
His family are all there.
All his companions, all the other Prophets,
all the Messengers are all there

All the righteous people, all the saints of Allah
and our brothers
Muslimin and muslimat,
Mukminin and mukminat
who have passed on
including our fathers and mothers
who had gone.
are all included as well as
our families who had left.

Over there is our beloved Syeikh and Abuya,
they are currently in the other world.
They are all citizens over there.

Let us go.
We shall go but not empty-handed.
We should bring along our trays of gifts
Present to all of them..
For each of our tray
they will respond with tenfold trays.
We will be welcomed
and we will be rewarded with
There is a relationship between this world and the world of the unseen
Muslims have been deceived and cheated
for saying that there is no relationship between the living with the dead

According to the Quran,
the people of taqwa
are those who believe in the invisible world
Faith is not a mere believe,
But there is a sense of longing,
there is a feeling of wanting to go there.
This is said to have faith.
Allazi nayu’minunabilghaibb
this is the first few sentences that we read
when we open the Qur’an.

Those people,
people whom God love,
the people of the truth,
the people who have taqwa
They are very in love, they long, they are passionate
with the invisible world.


What is Polygamy?

Polygamy is a way of life in a family as commanded by God. For Allah and Rasul, life as a family is polygamy. While monogamy is the last choice. To have one wife is meant only for the people who are too weak to be fair leaders. Polygamy is actually needed by both men and women.

Woman who loves God absolutely requires polygamy. This is because between the responsibility towards God and responsibility towards her husband, polygamy is the way for her to fulfill it. That is submission towards God, love with God and sacrifice for God will be most practical when our lifestyle is polygamy. Polygamy provides many great deal and wide opportunities for one to demonstrate that one’s life is only for the sake of God. Whoever prays in the real sense of the word will surely never miss this opportunity. This is because a prayer states that life is only for God.

Polygamy trains women to say:

God, the match whom You bestow upon me, this husband of mine, I am blessed to have him so that I can be more thankful to You. So, I will prove it to You, that a husband is a leader and a wife is an obedient follower. This leader who can lead more than one wife, I will share all the pleasures I receive from my husband and this household with another woman who also needs it. For the sake of obeying Your commands O Lord, so that my love for You is verified and also for the sake of getting Your acceptance O Lord. And so that the Prophet’s Sunnah is my Sunnah too. That is polygamy is helping woman to free herself from the nafs ammarah. That is polygamy is the most effective cure to obtain God’s love. The hardships in polygamy is indeed needed to cleanse the heart from the evil and filthy nafs. Whoever wishes to die as someone who brings along a protected heart, will certainly choose polygamy as a way of life. With regards to this protected heart, Allah has revealed in Al Quran, meaning:

” On that day ( Day of Reckoning ) wealth and children will not be of any use unless you bring along a protected heart.” ( As Syu’ara: 88-89 )

What do men need polygamy? Yes, it is for the men to say, ” For the sake of God, I will demonstrate that a man is capable of marrying 4 women, to lead them to God, to totally fulfill the love and care and their welfare, to provide many children and to make them feeling satisfied and contented with all these. With the condition that You care to be with me throughout my entire life, O Allah. O Lord, You are Most Just, please make me into a leader who is fair and just.”

God, whenever there exist a man and women who possess the hearts mentioned earlier, then they will be united in a marriage so that a harmonious and beautiful polygamy will take place as what You meant. Al Quran and Hadith will then be practiced as a way of life. Then, appear a live and moving Al Quran and Hadith, implementing an Islamic way of life. The Pillars of Faith and the Pillars of Islam become alive within the pillars of life of human. And it is the beginning of Islamic resurgence on God’s earth. Amin, O Allah.




In the name of Allah, the Most Compassionate, Most Merciful

Praise be to Allah, the Lord of the Universe

Sovereign of the Day of Judgement

You alone we worship and to You alone we turn for help

Guide us to the straight path

The path of whom  ( the righteous people ) You have favoured

Not of those who have incurred Your wrath ( nafs and satan )

Nor of those who have gone astray ( the Jews and the Christians )  – AL FATIHAH ( The Exordium)

May Allah grant peace and blessings upon the Beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW, his Family members, his Companions and his followers

O Lord, we have wronged ourselves. If You forgive us not, and bestow not upon us Your Mercy, we shall certainly be of the losers. ( Al A’raf 7: 23 )

O Lord, please  forgive us and our brethren who have preceded us in faith, and put not in our hearts any hatred against those who have believed. Our Lord! You are indeed full of kindness, Most Merciful. ( Al Hashr 59 : 10)

O my Lord! Make me one who performs As salat and ( also ) from my offspring, our Lord! and please accept  my invovation

O Lord ! Please forgive me and my parents and ( all ) the believers on the Day when the reckoning will be established. ( Ibrahim 14 :  40, 41 )

Our Lord ! Punish us not if we forget or fall into error, our Lord! Lay not on us a burden like that which You did lay on those before us ( Jews and Christians ). Our Lord ! Put not on us a burden greater that we have strength to bear. Pardon us and grant us Forgiveness. Have mercy on us. You are our Maula ( Patron, Supporter and Protector, etc ) and give us victory over the disbelieving people. ( Al Baqarah 2 : 286 )

O Allah, grant peace ad blessings upon our beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW, his family, his companions and his congregation. Glory be to Allah from all of their evil thoughts. Peace and blessing for all the Prophets and Allah is the Owner of the entire Universe. Ameen.







How kind Allah is to grant me a Prophet
The Prophet who loves me dearly
and desires for my own safety
and who is very concerned about mishaps that befall upon me

He is willing to weep for over 1000 years
for my good fortune
God The Creator, God The Owner
Whilst the Prophet is the one who implements, all efforts are to save me

My Prophet is my doctor
My Prophet is my teacher
M Prophet is my leader
My Prophet is both father and mother to my soul

O Messenger SAW, The Prophet for the end of time
How could they separate me from you
They said that your prophetess no longer exist from the moment you passed on
Thus, for a long period I have been without you
O, how deviating has been my thoughts, my feelings and my physique
Until Abuya and Saidi
Reunited me with my Prophet

My Prophet is my yearning
My Prophet is my beloved
My Prophet is my reverend
My Prophet is my life and death

Now, I do have my Prophet, I am able to have conversations with him frequently,
In fact, living together with him in the same abode,
He is guiding me for 24 hours and on,
As to how the Religion, the Al Quran should be uphold within oneself, family and the congregation.

Hence Abuya and Saidi’s struggle which I am advocating as well
As the struggle which has been promised by my God and my Prophet
Will never be defeated ever again
As with me is the Prophet
He will not appear except for victory
Consequently, I have experienced victories after victories

My Prophet is my doctor
My Prophet is my teacher
M Prophet is my leader
My Prophet is both father and mother to my soul

My Prophet is my yearning
My Prophet is my beloved
My Prophet is my reverend
My Prophet is my life and death